It’s been a while…
Assalamualaikum…
A bit confused right now… many things have happened and I don’t know what to make out of it anymore.. well, to be honest, I’m kinda in trouble right now, but nothing I can’t handle.. I think it’s fair that I do whatever I’m about to do.. haha, so bizzare… Just arrived in KL from JB… tired to death…
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Busan…
Actually xde pe aku nk ckp pon.. skadar melepaskan rase busan aku je.. and aku ade bende gk yb mcm x puas hati… tp aku x pnh cite spesifik kat sini, aku cume cite am die je. aku x suke nk cite sgt kat org bnde2 yg aku x puas hati. Byk aku simpan sndri je. Kalu aku cite pon, x gune gk. Dlu aku pnh gk simpan diari, kononnye nk tulis bnde2 yg aku x suke le… tp dlm diari pon aku menipu juge. So, no use pon. last2 aku buang je. srupe x ade. Sume dlm kpala otak aku. Tu yg mbuatkan aku smkin tension kot. Aku cm fedup gk ngan benda2 ni sume. Tapi aku xtau lg cmne nk setelkan. Seriusly aku busan. Aku igt betul la, aku fokus kat karier je. Yg lain g mampos sume. kalu aku dok mlayan, lagi aku sakit ati. Sudahnye yg jadi bodonye, aku. Aku, aku, aku. Lantakle….. p mampos le nk jadi ape pon…
Kdg2 aku pon x sangka betapa complicatednye life ni.. tp nk wat cmne kan? That’s how things work. Haaa…. ade satu lagi bnde aku bengang bab kerje ni… ade la satu kali makhluk kat tempat lame aku dlu, boleh jaja cerite kate aku ni x guna, x buat keje mase aku dok kat tempat lame aku tu. katenye aku ade situ srupa xde je, sume keje die kene buat. Kalu bnde tu btul, aku akan terime dgn hati terbuka. Tapi masalahnye tuan puan, mase die dok pejabat tu, aku x pnh keje skali ngn die. mase aku dok situ die x masuk lagi unit tu. cm Celaka x? ak hangin je.. jangan smpai kang aku mengambil tindakan drastik. bodo punye org..
Uncategorized | Comment (1)All revealed…
Salam readers.. well, i’m hoing to tell you guys a story. A story of a broken-heart. Not mine apparently, it appears that someone has it worse than me. Someone I really care about. And it explained a lot. A true whole lot. I wish I had known it earlier. I wouldn’t have spent my time wondering why is this, or why is that. It’s sad really, but then, I am going through that phase right now. So, why does this keeps haunting me? Am I being too attached to, can’t I just let it all go? I’ve tried, God knows how hard I try, but I failed. I do not know why, it’s probably because what i feel or felt was true. It was never a lie. I sincerely and truly feel the way I felt. Probably that’s the reason it’ so hard to let go. It even haunts me in my dream, and it sickens me. I wish that I could be heartless. I wish I couldn’t feel pain. I wish I could go on with my life, not wondering about ‘what might’ve been’. but no, my inquiring heart keeps urging me to go forth and seek for the answer. I’ve been trying to clear this puzzle in my head for years now, but still to no avail.. I think I need help. People keeps telling me how strong I am, how I am able to stand all the agony and sorrows.. but in truth, ladies and gents, I do feel pain as harshly as all humans must’ve felt. I am still human. I may look and act tough, but inside, I’m just a little girl, who still are very much afraid.
That’s not saying much either. For all that is worth, I think the best thing to do is to indulge myself in ‘devil may care’ manner I hope. Hoping that someday the grief will be washed away by the tide of my ignorance. it will take time, probably, but it’s the best I could come up with.. I just hope and pray to Allah, that I will have peace and serenity in my life, to face all the coming years of my life. Yes readers, it is very very hard. I felt compelled to do some stupid things before. But just remember this, if you are about to do something that will probably make you regret for the rest of your miserable life, just think about the effects it will have NOT on you, but to your FAMILY, your PARENTS. It never was about you, it’s about them. Think about how they raised you to be a good person, and don’t waste it doing something that will be mark down as a tragedy in your life. And never forget Allah SWT.
Till next time. May Allah bless you guys.
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Well… um…. whatever….
I am so dead bored… nothing to do these few days.. (you guys must think that i am an ungrateful b**** who doesn’t deserve free time, huh) well, actually I do feel grateful for all the spare times that i have. It’s just that sometimes one might tend to feel a bit bored… haha… try saying that when you have a lot in your hands… well, I might as well take a quick nap, just to pass the time. You see how desperate I am? sleep to past the time? A lot of people must be envying me so bad right now…
Hm, nothing new to report, but just writing coz i had request from dear friends who ask me if there’s a new blog post… Awww…. you guys are so sweet… I never thought anyone would like to look at my page, let alone read my blog… I really do appreciate you guys…
What does this pic trying to imply? I dunno, just having fun I guess..
To be honest with you guys, I never thought about inserting pics in my blog, but hey, that could be a good idea, no? well, here’s another one. Please bear in mind that some of the pictures probably have nothing to do with the posts… just sticking them in here for fun…
This was the time I had an eye surgery... It
Well, that’s all for today.. stay tune for more tomorrow… If I’m up to it I will insert pic of an outing to the National Zoo… Those cute elephants….
Uncategorized | Comment (0)alone again.. haha…
Well boys and girls, i guess perhaps i was destined to be alone for the rest of my life. Nothing really worked out. I guess that perhaps this is the best possible way for everyone. I think there is something wrong with me.. maybe i’m not meant to be around people.. or perhaps i just suck.
I always thougth that my life would be like a fairy tale. A handsome prince that swept me off my feet, life happily ever after and stuff. But I have to admit, that those are FAIRYTALES. Not in real life it would happen.
I really felt so deeply guilty bout what happened last week. Well, it is my fault I guess. But nontheless, … well, I don’t know.. I’m not sure bout anything these days. Sometimes, just sometimes, I wished that something will end me from all this. Like, when I was suspected of brain tumor, I secretly wished that it was true. Cause smetimes I can’t bear to live like this, while I still long for ‘em, but alas, new fresh meats he have. So, I ask you, what should I do? How can I endure all the pain? Does anyone have the remedy for my problem?
Does anyone have any cure to my pain? How can I REALLY forget someone? I had no idea it would be this TOUGH.. seriously, I need some medication for all this.. I really can’t stand it anymore.. Please.
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Tonight will be pretty scary..;.
Assalamualaikum wbt….
Right now I am in Batu Pahat, staying at a camp.. but I’m feeling a bit scared, coz LOTS of people told me that this particular camp is a bit…..(haunted)….. so the time now is 1609… still have lots of daylights left… but scared a bit lah….. huhuhu… how? any ideas on how I should spend the night without feeling scared?
Hm…. it’s been quite a while since i write a post on my blog… anyway, nothing interesting happenned lately. same old. I haven’t balik kampung yet since the day of my sister’s wedding… haven’t got time. it’s work, work, work…
As for my previous stories and posts, i just look at it as some memoirs that will help me to get along in the world… but to tell you guys the truth, I am a bit, no, a LOT paranoid about getting into a relationship again. It has become one of the things that i dreaded most. huh.. better to be single then to be heartbroken, I say. Who’s with me?!
So, now I’m 24 years old, can you believe that? I could still remember the day i turned 19, and I said, wow, I’m nearly 20 now. then all of a sudden, I’m 24!! Time goes by without me noticing it…
Anyhow, thanks again for reading. I hoped u all enjoyed it. till next time. Tata!!
Assalamualaikum wbt…
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Assalamualaikum wbt….
Hm… at the moment im sitting under a tree beside a field, while keeping a watchful eye on my recruit candidates… they r scheduled for medical check up today… and i’m bored as hell…. help me…..
hm… things have turned out to be better than i expected… what more do i want? u guys wanna know sumting? there’s a person who feels threatened by me… me? of all people? i have nothing to be intimidated of…. but it feels kinda nice, i suppose… huhuhu…..
lately, i see that sumthing is changing… i don’t know if it’s for the best or for worst, but it’s happening, and i’m scared because i don’t know which course it will take… if i’m weak, then probably it will end up to be exactly as it was before… so i’m hoping that i’ll be firm and strong and not to let my feelings come before my judgement….
who knows, maybe it’ll turn out to be a good thing after all….
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Weird…..
Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh….
To those who read my blog posts, thank you. the purpose of me writing this blog is just so that i have someplace to pour out my heart and mind… if any of u guys who expected more, i’m sorry. you may not find it here..
So, right now i’m in Penang. just enjoying some freetime at my old place. meeting old friends. tomorrow i’ll be heading to Kelantan. most will probably think that my job is tiring. but, hey,what do you expect? i have no problem at all with it. it’s all been one heck of a ride for me…
As for my life, well, things have turned out to be more complicated than i thought…. i won’t write it down, it’s too personal… maybe some other time when everything have sorted accordingly, i’ll probably make a novel out of it.
ok, till pen meets paper… da….
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Awal Muharram Vs. New Year…
Assalamualaikum wbt..
Tahun baru menjelma lagi. Macam2 organisasi sibok dok buat pesta menyambut tahun baru. Mercun sana, mercun sini. Hebat. Meriah. Seronok.
Bagus la tu. Seronok kan? hm… ape yang kita tgh buat skarang ni? Awal Muharram aritu kite ade wat pape ke? Ntah2 kite pon xtau awal muharram. Sini aku bagi sejarah ringkas tentang awal muharram…
Awal Muharram, the start of the Muslim year, is based on the date of the Hijrah (or Hijra) meaning “migration”, of Prophet Muhammad (sallallahhu alaihi wassalam) from Makkah to Medinah, in year 622 on the command and guidance of Allah, through Jibril.
During the 13 years from the first revelation of Islam and its subsequent propagation, the Muslim community in Makkah had been subjected to severe tortures, enslavement, humiliations and persecution by the mostly anti-Muslims Quraish groups.
The Hijrah was in fact a great strategical move to a place where the populace wholeheartedly accepted Muhammad’s (s.a.w) prophet-hood and embraced Islam, and they were bent to defend and fight for the religion.
In fact, after several years, Prophet Muhammad (s.a.w) and his followers were able to return to Makkah where they forgave their enemies, and within a century of his death, Islam had spread to all parts of the world.
Pengorbanan Rasulullah untuk umatnya. Tapi skarang…. hampes…. doa awal muharram mmg sah dh x baca….
DOA AKHIR TAHUN 1429H
Waktu membacanya :
Doa ini dibaca 3 kali pada akhir waktu asar atau sebelum masuk Maghrib pada akhir bulan Zulhijjah.
Kelebihan membacanya :
Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini maka akan berkata syaitan :
“Kesusahan bagiku dan sia2lah pekerjaanku menggoda anak Adam pada tahun ini dan Allah akan membinasakan aku pada saat itu juga. Dengan membaca doa ini Allah akan mengampunkan dosanya setahun.”
DOA :
Segala puji hanya bagi Allah , tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbir sekalian alam.
Selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan kemi Nabi Muhammad s.a.w serta ahli keluarga baginda dan para sahabatnya.
Ya Allah ,
Sesungguhnya pada tahun ini aku telah melakukan laranganmu tetapi aku masih belum bertaubat sedangkan Engkau tidak reda dan melupai perkara itu.
Engkau telah menangguhkan azabMu yang telah ditetapkan kepadaku.
Engkau telah memerintahkan supaya aku bertaubat dari kesalahan itu. Sesungguhnya pada hari ini aku bermohon keampunan dariMu , ampunilah aku dan apa yang telah aku lakukan pada tahun ini yang Engkau redai, Engkau janjikan pahala maka aku memohonnya daripada Engkau.
Ya Allah , Ya Karim , Ya Zaljalali Wal Ikram.
Selawat dan salam ke atas junjugan kami Nabi Muhammad s.a.w serta ahli keluarga baginda dan para sahabatnya.
Segala puji hanya bagi Allah ,Tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbir sekalian alam…..
Aminnn
DOA AWAL TAHUN 1430H
Waktu membacanya :
Doa ini dibaca 3 kali setelah masuk waktu Maghrib pada malam 1 Muharram
Kelebihan membacanya :
Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini maka akan berkata syaitan :
“Telah amanlah anak Adam daripada godaanku pada tahun ini kerana Allah telah mewakilkan dua malaikat untuk memeliharanya dari fitnah syaitan.”
DOA :
Segala puji hanya bagi Allah Tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbir sekalian alam.
Selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. serta ahli keluarga baginda dan para sahabatnya.
Ya Allah ,
Engkaulah yang kekal abadi untuk selama2nya.
Demi kelebihanmu yang Maha Agong dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah ,
Sesungguhnya pada tahun ini aku memohon kepadaMu perlindungan daripada syaitan yang direjam, dari sekalian kuncunya , tenteranya dan penolongnya.
Aku juga memohon perlindungan daripada nafsu amarah yang sentiasa mendorong ke arah kejahatan dan melalaikan dengan perkara yang tidak berfaedah daripada mendekatkan diriku kepadaMu.
Selawat serta salam ke atas junjungan kami Nabi Muhammad s.a.w ,serta ahli keluarga baginda dan para sahabatnya.
Segala puji hanya bagi Allah Tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbir sekalian alam,..
Aminnn…
You all fikir la sindri yekkkk….
Assalamualaikum wbt
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Tiga Golongan Ulama Dalam Beramal
Salam wahai pembaca…..
Sebagai umat Islam, kite wajib menyebarkan dakwah kepada semua.. disebabkan kadang2 keadaan kerja yg terlalu ketat, kite x dan nk buat bnde2 tu, walhal kalu ikut, kite wajib buat… so kalu dlm blog bole kire berdakwah kan???
Ok, for today, tajuknye adalah TIGA GOLONGAN ULAMA DALAM BERAMAL…
Allah swt telah membahagi hamba2-Nya kpd 3 golongan:
Azh-Zhalimun, (Org2 yang zalim), iaitu mereka yang menzalimi dirinya dengan menganggap remeh terhadap Allah dan melakukan maksiat atau melalaikan kewajipan.
Al-Muqtashidun,(org2 yg sekadarnya), iaitu mereka yg mencukupkan diri dengan meninggalkan maksiat dan hanya melaksanakan kewajipan sekadarnya.
As-Sabiqun, (Org2 yg berlumba-lumba), menuju kwajipan, iaitu mereka yg menjauhi maksiat, melaksanakan kewajipan, berlumba2 mengamalkan sunnah, selalu beramal soleh demi meraih keredhaan Allah, menjauhi perkara subahat dan makruh serta sentiasa mencari pintu2 kebaikan. Dgn semua itulah mereka menjadi sgt istimewa dr kebanyakan kaum Mukminin…
So, brothers and sisters, lu pikila sndri… lu golongan mane…. aku pon tunggang tebalik gak kdg2 semayang, tp kite kene sentiasa mncari keredhaan Allah swt… pde yg dh sebati sgt ngn maksiat tu, renung2le weh… jgn tgu dh tue br nk tobat, mati x knal usia…. korang nk kejar arta dunia, kejar la, tp saham akhirat pun lu kne jaga la weh…
hehe, sekian, wassalam….
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